Don't make it harder

I just don't understand why..... and how, my heart feels fluttered when I hear his laugh, even when I see his super-perfect-face.

I just don't understand why..... and how, he appeared in my dreams recently. And I, end up waking up with longing for him even more.

I love you. I know I have no confidence or even the courage to tell you that. I love you even if I could only see you from the back, and thinking, how we should together, and how you should be next to me.

I miss being next to you, being so close to you. Being the one you cared of. Oh sorry I forgot, maybe you just acted like that one. Maybe you thought that I'm the one you could played with when you bored. It's okay, really. As long as I could always be so close to you, and see your precious smile as long as I want.

So now, what's the point for ignored me? For treat me like a stranger? I just want to be close to you. Laugh together, and having fun together. Just...... please, don't make it harder for me.

It's enough for me for loving you one-side. It's really fine. I love to see you from the back. I love for secretly stalking you all day.

Please, don't make it even harder for me......

Malang, May, 8th 2013, 01:37am